tristinawright:

could go for a cut & run x-men au

and maybe a doughnut

So.

I first saw Zane as Xavier, then dismissed it and then went for Wolverine with the knives, but then I thought Phoenix and decided he is Jean Grey.

Ty should be Cyclops.  Bossy

Nick should be Wolverine.  Badass

And if we make Nick Wolverine, Kelly can be Rogue. 

Digger can be Storm.  She uses weather to blow things up.

Owen can be Mystique.  Spy man

Eli can be Xavier.  He dies a lot and can be all cerebro for everyone. 

Liam can be Magneto, but that is really default for me since I don’t know any other “bad” guy positions in x-men. 

::big grin::

Oh, we need a Gambit.  Ash from Gravedigger’s Brawl can be him. 

dontkissthemonkeys:

My Easter egg coloring attempt at doing the Nickels design.

I am a serious adult doing serious adult things.

I never realized I needed C&R easter eggs till now. I know you don’t think you did that well, but this marvelous and completely made my day.  I wanna do this now.  Husband is shaking his head.  Challenge accepted.

beffers87:

A little thing for Cross & Crown

I am still not sure Liam in actually in this book.  He was not in the blurb nor in the book trailer.  Like not even a peep.  What he needs Nick for has to be plot worthy, and yet it is not a part of the book?  Why make a character like Liam and then not advertise that he is in this specific book?   That tells me he is not there, and he is off puttering around doing Liam things.  Then in book 9, he will swoop in when he needs Nick for his nefarious deeds.  Or hero deeds.  The fucker really is gray. 

beffers87:

A little thing for Cross & Crown

I am still not sure Liam in actually in this book.  He was not in the blurb nor in the book trailer.  Like not even a peep.  What he needs Nick for has to be plot worthy, and yet it is not a part of the book?  Why make a character like Liam and then not advertise that he is in this specific book?   That tells me he is not there, and he is off puttering around doing Liam things.  Then in book 9, he will swoop in when he needs Nick for his nefarious deeds.  Or hero deeds.  The fucker really is gray. 

(via daisy-is-not-a-flower)

amirosebooks:

I just sent malady579 an email with all of my drafted meta replies and partial meta posts so that she can hopefully find some to pester me about. Maybe if I can make my brain meta again then I can write again and then I won’t feel so damn lost again. Because for the last couple weeks on all writing (and, hell, even reading now) fronts? It’s just been a whole lot of this:

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Dude.  Any of these would be wonderful.  Really.  My meta mind is spinning.  Like this Nick one.  Or that Ty one.  This Ty one.  Oh, look another Ty one.  Ooo, pretty Liam one here would be pleasant.  Owen needs to stay in drafts for a while till closer to book 9.  This Nick should wait till after C&C, I think.  I really like this T/Z N/K compare and contrast to how they feel during the deployment time.  Made me think. 

But really.  Any of these are lovely. 

Use me

a-quick-drink:

malady579:

I wondered tonight, if Nick feels used.  I know he feels used by Ty, but what about his family.  I guess he feels used by his dad, though Nick had a choice.  Ok, he really didn’t, and his dad knew that.  Though maybe his dad did not know.  He was scared to ask Nick for a piece of his liver.  He knew Nick had every right to say no.  Will this dethaw his dad a bit?  The fact Nick said yes.  Does it ever dethaw people towards Nick when he does things for them.  Or does that encourage them to use him more.  Which way does Nick see it?

He sees it as his choice, that he chooses to let himself be used by those he loves. 

I guess I started wondering because, in Shock & Awe, Nick is scared Kelly might perceive that Nick is using him in his drugged state.  That Kelly will wake up from the drugs and feel taken advantage of.  Nick is very sensitive to that possibility, and does not in any circumstance want to be perceived that way.  That might be why Nick is so independent.  He does not want to need anyone so they won’t feel used by him. 

For himself, he frames it all as his choice.  He choses to give himself.  He chooses to let those he loves use him.  And he never speaks up.

I think to what Abi posted yesterday.  This moment: “…and he doesn’t see the wounded look in Nick’s eyes”.  How many have not seen the wounded look in Nick’s eyes.  Nick gives so much.  Is always there.  Yet he felt inadequate in that moment with Kelly.  He thought Kelly did not want to be around Nick and would prefer staying with Ty and Eli.  I wonder if Nick felt lonely since he was living alone or if he felt he was not good enough for Kelly.  It always hurts when it comes down to it and your friends chose someone else.  Nick did not speak up and just took Kelly where he wanted to go. 

Of course, Kelly ended up back and Nick’s, but it makes me wonder why Nick gives so much without speaking up.  Does the man just want to be loved, want to be someone’s first choice, or can he not help wanting to be all he can be for those he loves?  Those in need.  It is like a small part of him is saying “if he is perfect, they will love you the most”, and he knows it is not rational, but he wants to the the most for someone. 

But he will not demand it.  Or even ask for it.  He will let them feel as they feel. 

And be hurt when he is not their most.

I think you hit the nail on the head by asking if he wants to be someone’s first choice because, really, when has someone put his needs first—fought for him?

If Ty was the first person to do that by standing up for him on the bus, well, 18 years is a hell of a long time to have to wait for that. But when Ty refuses to live with him when everyone splits up, did it feel like maybe a dumb car was more important than him? Yeah, living alone has its perks, but it’s not all kittens and rainbows, especially when the silence reminds you what you no longer have. And, sure, Kelly came back, but only because he had no other choice; Nick’s place was never his first choice even if it logically should have been. Or what about all those flings he’s had—did no one want more than a night or two? Did he ever secretly hope someone might stay for once despite all his issues? Have all these negative experiences reinforced the idea that he’s not worth more?

I like to believe he has a lot of love to give—wants to give it to someone special—but no one wants it from him. He’s more than a handful and I don’t think the average person can or wants to deal with that.

But Kelly’s not the average person. He’s the one person who understands Nick and what he’s going through, who’s strong enough to defend himself when Nick has a flashback. The one person who wanted to be with him and fought for a relationship; who will always defend him, now maybe more so than ever. The one person who will always remind Nick that he’s a good man with a hell of a lot to be proud of. The one person who’s giving as much love as he’s receiving—if not more.

But nearly 40 years is a hell of a long time to have waited for that…

I love what you added.  It makes me wonder how lonely Nick has been.  For so long he has been alone.  Yes, he is friendly and sociable but he hasn’t had a true “soulmate”.  The closest was Ty, but Ty is a bit of a priss at times and does not think to Nick’s needs.  If Nick does not voice those needs, Ty assumes Nick is fine.  That Nick does not need anything. 

Nick is very self sufficient and does not need much, but when he does, he finds ways to placate himself.  Like he did with Kelly in S&A.  He looked to Kelly’s needs before his.  Kelly needs a pillow.  Kelly needs happy m&m pancakes.  Kelly needs time to realize what he wants and not what his drugs want.  Nick was ready to take a few days to ride out his own needs rather than address them.

I like to believe he has a lot of love to give—wants to give it to someone special—but no one wants it from him. He’s more than a handful and I don’t think the average person can or wants to deal with that.

That was heartbreaking.  Nick needs someone that can handle him.  He knows that who he is deep within himself is not someone most can handle.  He throws up defenses to filter out those that would crumble on him.  Why get close if they will bolt when it gets tough.  Part why when Kelly pushes them aside like cobwebs it blew Nick’s mind.  He did not have to be afraid.  He does not have to push away.  (Hello, Frozen.  Fancy seeing you here.)

Use me

I wondered tonight, if Nick feels used.  I know he feels used by Ty, but what about his family.  I guess he feels used by his dad, though Nick had a choice.  Ok, he really didn’t, and his dad knew that.  Though maybe his dad did not know.  He was scared to ask Nick for a piece of his liver.  He knew Nick had every right to say no.  Will this dethaw his dad a bit?  The fact Nick said yes.  Does it ever dethaw people towards Nick when he does things for them.  Or does that encourage them to use him more.  Which way does Nick see it?

He sees it as his choice, that he chooses to let himself be used by those he loves. 

I guess I started wondering because, in Shock & Awe, Nick is scared Kelly might perceive that Nick is using him in his drugged state.  That Kelly will wake up from the drugs and feel taken advantage of.  Nick is very sensitive to that possibility, and does not in any circumstance want to be perceived that way.  That might be why Nick is so independent.  He does not want to need anyone so they won’t feel used by him. 

For himself, he frames it all as his choice.  He choses to give himself.  He chooses to let those he loves use him.  And he never speaks up.

I think to what Abi posted yesterday.  This moment: “…and he doesn’t see the wounded look in Nick’s eyes”.  How many have not seen the wounded look in Nick’s eyes.  Nick gives so much.  Is always there.  Yet he felt inadequate in that moment with Kelly.  He thought Kelly did not want to be around Nick and would prefer staying with Ty and Eli.  I wonder if Nick felt lonely since he was living alone or if he felt he was not good enough for Kelly.  It always hurts when it comes down to it and your friends chose someone else.  Nick did not speak up and just took Kelly where he wanted to go. 

Of course, Kelly ended up back and Nick’s, but it makes me wonder why Nick gives so much without speaking up.  Does the man just want to be loved, want to be someone’s first choice, or can he not help wanting to be all he can be for those he loves?  Those in need.  It is like a small part of him is saying “if he is perfect, they will love you the most”, and he knows it is not rational, but he wants to the the most for someone. 

But he will not demand it.  Or even ask for it.  He will let them feel as they feel. 

And be hurt when he is not their most.